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Friday, April 1, 2016

Healing With The Angels

Getting ready to go to work this morning and I so do not want to go. Yesterday was AWFUL! The phone was ringing every 5 seconds, people were constantly in and out, and to top it all off there were people installing and testing fire alarms. By the end of the day my head was pounding. The only good thing about yesterday (besides it being my dog's first birthday) was getting acupuncture at the end of the day. I swear that woman can work miracles. She got rid of my headache, as well as the problems I've been having with my back. I feel like a new person. There's something to be said about holistic healing. It really does work. It gets to the root of the problem, not just the symptoms. I'm slowly trying to get off all my meds and replace them with natural healing and supplements. I think that I will feel tons better.

    I've been reading a lot about angels and calling on them for help and let me tell you that it really does work. The archangels are God's messengers so you don't pray to them or anything like that, but you can ask them for help. I have been asking for help and signs and boy have I gotten them. I won't go into anything personal, because I kind of feel like I need to keep some things to myself, but I have been relying on the spiritual realm to help me get thru things and it has most definitely been working. I've been visualizing and meditating and I feel better now than I have in a long time. Archangel Raphael's healing light is the color of green and pink can also be a healing light, So when my dog had a place come up on her little chest and I had no clue what it was, I asked Archangel Raphael for help and visualized my dog being bathed in green and pink light and low and behold the place on her is looking better and better every day. AMAZING! And for all you skeptics out there, please keep your thoughts and opinions to yourself (because I wouldn't listen to them anyway).

Hope everyone has a great Friday! Remember to call on the angels for help when you need it!

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Life Lately....

Hey my beautiful blogger friends! I posted yesterday for the first time in a long time. It feels good to be writing again. I wanted to update a few things on here because life has really changed for me since getting sober. I still have the same job and things are a lot better here even though this is really not what I want to do for the rest of my life. I've taken a liking to energy healing. I've been going to see an energy healer for the last couple months and she is nothing short of amazing. She is able to listen to my body and she can figure out things that I've never told anyone else. She has helped me so much and I really want to do the same for others, so I started taking courses online to get my energy healing certification. I'm really excited about this and I'm LOVING the courses. I've also become a more spiritual person. I go to church every Sunday, but there's a lot more to spirituality than that. I call upon God, Jesus, and the Archangels for everything in my life. I spend time everyday in meditation. I think it's so important for anyone, not just people in recovery to get quiet at least once a day. I do not let anyone bother me during my meditation. I always turn my phone on do not disturb and have at it. One of the apps I use for meditation is called Headspace and it's awesome. I've been using it for a little over a year now and it has helped me on my meditation journey tremendously! You can also get on youtube and search for different kinds of meditation videos. I have used those a lot too. Along with prayer and meditation, I also work out every day. I think it's so important to get your body moving at least a few times a week. I bought a spin bike and I ride it every day. I've gotten up to 7 miles and I'm working my way up. I LOVE riding my bike. Some people are runners, swimmers, etc but I've definitely found my peace in bike riding. I can just get on there and peddle away the stress of my day. It's awesome! I also read a lot! I read books on different things, but I love books about energy healing, healing with the angels, and then of course I love my scary books (Stephen King). I've benefited so much in my recovery just from reading and learning about new things that I can do. In other news, I'm now single. It was important for me to have some time to heal and get myself together before I bring another person into the mix. Addiction hurt so many of my loved ones and I'm just not willing to hurt anyone else. I want to be more emotionally stable before making a life with another.

I guess that's about it for today. I need to get back to work. See you guys tomorrow.

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

I'm Back!

So it's been awhile since I've posted. I am now almost 10 months sober, which I am very happy about! I gotta tell you.....it was rough for awhile. I kept relapsing to the point where I couldn't get 30 days of sobriety. Then in June of 2015 my poor body had all it could take. I had a nervous breakdown (which I don't really remember thank goodness). I slept for a couple of days and when I woke up, I just didn't want to use anymore....and I haven't. God really does answer prayers guys. My life was so dark before I got sober. I spent nights crying on the floor begging God to help me and within a couple of days my prayer was answered. God is so good. So glad to be back with you guys! I'm going to be posting a lot more since I finally got a new laptop. I love all you awesome people.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

May The Bridges I Burn......

I'm really thinking about starting a new blog. I look at this blog and all the posts and pictures aren't really me. All those things were what I wanted people to see. I didn't want people to see who I really was. I didn't want them to see that I was struggling and slowly dying. I feel like this blog is a complete lie. All the pictures of my smiling face and posts about being happy or whatever other lies I've put on here are too much for me to stomach. I can't even read posts because it's so painful to remember that time of my life. A time of trying to fool everyone, myself included. Thank God I am not that same sad, struggling girl who lied to everyone, most of all herself. I accept my past because it is what it is and it brought me to where I am now. But Please know that I am not my past. I am a survivor who clings to life and to my higher power and to loved ones I shut out for years. I am making amends and learning how to live a life that I can be proud of. I found a quote online that is going to be my next tattoo because I think it's perfect for where I am in my life right now. It says "May the bridges I burn light my way."  So true.

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Struggles

I'm really struggling today.....  The good thing about sobriety is you feel everything. The bad thing about sobriety is you feel everything. So when something hurts, it REALLY hurts. People can be so cruel and cold hearted. I always try to give people the benefit of the doubt and boy did it backfire on me. My trust in people is completely gone. I'll never put myself in the position to be used and hurt again. It was my own damn fault for being so stupid and believing in someone who is really not a good person. I know this is just another lesson in life but shit it hurts. Just Praying that I can make it through this and come out a better person.

Friday, August 29, 2014

Lately

A lot of things have changed since my last post. I have a confession to make. I'm a recovering addict. I lived in the pits of helll for almost six years and on June 12, 2014 I checked myself into a rehab in West Palm beach Florida. I stayed there for 35 days and got my life back. I am beyond thankful for that place and all the people I met that changed my life. Since I have been home, things have not been perfect, but with every struggle I've picked myself right back up and surrendered to my higher power Jesus Christ. I go to meetings every day after work. I have a wonderful sponsor and an amazing Support system. I am beyond thankful to be sober. I wanted to share this because I feel like I haven't been honest on here and this is the place I need to be honest. It's my space to let everything out and I need that now more than ever. I've really missed posting on here. And I've missed all my blogger friends. Recovery is about getting real with yourself and others and that's what I intend to do........

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

M.I.A.

So I realize I have been M.I.A. for awhile and for that I am sorry. BUT.....You see......I FINALLY got a new job! I am working part time as a 911 Emergency Dispatcher. I am still in training but I really do like my new job title. At first I was a little overwhelmed because it is A LOT......but I have been observing and listening in on calls and little by little I am starting to understand it. In fact, I dispatched my first call today! I was so nervous, but I made it through. It wasn't a 911 call (I don't think I'm quite ready for that just yet). Although it's only a part time job, for my training I am working full time hours. So.....I have been working several 12 hour shifts a week. Let's just say that when I get home.....it's all I can do to go on my daily run. BUT I do get it done! Regardless of how many hours I work, I have been making myself get that daily run in. It's so important to me (and my sanity) to have that time to myself every day. I have reached 3 miles a day! To say I've come a long way would be an understatement. When I first started running, I had just quit smoking so I couldn't even run for a minute straight without having to walk. Last week, I reached a little over 3 miles and I was so beyond proud of myself and how far I've come. Not just in running, but in my life. I am not the same person I was a few months ago. No more living badly and smoking a pack a day. No more going to bed every night ashamed of the things I had done earlier that day. I now go to bed feeling proud and thanking God for giving me the strength and courage to get out of that bad place in my life. I'm a whole new woman......and for that.....I am truly grateful!